UPDATE: This note is being written March 7th, 2019. As stated above, some "content" in the website was removed in the second half of February. But this "update" is to report that more has now been removed this 7th day of March, as it is becoming difficult to ascertain what the nature is, of our "communication" (or, rather, where it might or might not be going). This "ebb and flow" of my "communication" is wholly commensurate with what our "relationship" feels like. It's a living thing, sensed day by day, not static. And actually this website represents rather a "catch 22": On the one hand it was begun to "fill in" the flow of communication, that is, to augment it. But that fact itself suggests that I felt that I was not "communicating" with you well enough. I felt there was much that I couldn't get across effectively (whether or not that were due to the situations on the ground, i.e. phonecalls while driving in traffic, etc). But now there's this dichotomy: If in fact our "communication" is on the wane, beginning to diminish, it makes no sense at all that I be working to pour more into it, in this website. Seems a strange picture, trying to communicate more while the facts suggest that communication in the overall might be succeeding less. Why go whistling in the wind? So, I slowed this down, and am seeking to learn more from the Lord as to what the "nature" of mine and your contact is.

We had a couple of interesting exchanges on the phone in 2019 about this website: On one of those occasions I brought up the website. It had not been mentioned in our discussions for at least a half a year (which I thought was odd). But on this occasion that I decided to bring it up, I made mention of "that website" I created for you ... and I said ... well, recently I've been going in there and taking things out."

Quite abruptly, you shot back, "NO! you should put them back!"

I only said, "Well, I just wanted you to know, that's what I've been doing, bit by bit, taking things out of it."

Somehow our phone chat proceeded onward without a glitch from that point, and we were talking about other things.

Some weeks after that, we were again in a phone conversation, and I started to say something about the website, and you abruptly chopped it off:

I said, "You know, I had rather hoped you'd be interested in that website I built you, but" "NO! You said you are taking things out of it!" you interjected. "Hmmm ... well, okay," I said, and I think I then just returned to the subject matter we had been discussing just before then. I think we had a very nice conversation in fact.

And, as I recall, at my next convenience I went in to the website and removed a couple of more things I had there, which didn't seem to comport with the current feel of our communications.